Day 239

Guess who had an orthodontist appointment this week...
ME!
Guess who might get their braces off roughly 2 weeks...
ME!

Yeah so at my orthodontist appointment Dr. C said that at my next appointment, in 2 weeks, we'll be able to schedule a removal date if everything looks good!
And the thing is, I actually kind of believe him this time! My mouth feels really good! Everything seems to be where it needs to be!
The first food I'm eating when I get my braces off is a caramel apple. I don't care if I'm allergic to sugar, I DESERVE IT. And then I'm going to get teeth whitener. Because I deserve that too.

Other than that, I'm lovin' my face!

I just got back from choir tour, which took place in DISNEYLAND. It's crazy, because last year for choir tour we also went to Disneyland, and I remember saying "This is my last trip to Disneyland with this jaw." And just so much has changed it's crazy.

So this next pic is from choir tour 2014. I'm the one on the far right...

Tour 2k14

Tour 2k15...

Me and my cute friends:)

Day 213 - Life Update

Here's a little life update for anyone that cares :)

So remember back when I got an endoscopy? Yeah, well the results came back from that last month, and it turns out I'm allergic to table sugar (sucrose) and grain sugar (so like wheat, white rice, etc.) Yeah. So life's been pretty fun for the last two months or so... I've had to reconstruct an entire diet for myself because SO MUCH STUFF has sugar and grain in it, it's ridiculous. But on the plus side, if I don't eat grains or sugar, I no longer get super bloated, and my skin is relatively clearer, and I no longer have acid reflux problems! So I think it's worth it.

Second, I got accepted to all three of the colleges I applied to, so it's time to make a decision. I'm probably going to end up going to BYU since that's where I've wanted to go since I was a wee lass, and that's where everyone expects me to go...
But I'm growing up! I guess that's the point I'm trying to get at. It's weird. And I really would like to get my braces off before I graduate high school.

Growing up is sketchy.

Day 194

First things first, throwing up with braces is absolutely AWFUL. 'nuff said.

So somehow I missed my 6 month mark? WHAT? MY LIFE. Holy cow, I absolutely cannot believe it has been half a year since surgery. Life is so normal now... my face looks great (and will look even better once I get these metal monsters off my teeth), I can chew, and I have feeling in the majority of my face (my gums are a little numb, and I have some numb patches on my chin). I'm so grateful for this whole experience I've been able to have. Jaw surgery was actually a HUGE trial in my life, but I've seriously grown so much from it, and if it had to be anyone's trial, I'm glad it was mine.
Ok. I'm done being cheesy and cliché.

Day 188

It's been a rough few weeks. I've been eagerly awaiting my orthodontist appointment, which I had yesterday, but the appointment did not lighten my spirits. I went in thinking on what Dr. Christiansen told me at my last appointment which was, "Not the next appointment, but the next, we can probably get your braces off."
But alas.
My bite is still getting it's crap together and getting aligned, so I still have no end in sight. At this appointment, Dr. Christiansen said, "Not the next appointment, but the next, we can probably get your braces off." Deja vu, right? And what made me even sadder is that they said my next appointment would have been in 4 more weeks, but the Doctor is getting surgery, so it's in 6 more weeks.
Guh.
I just want to get my braces off before graduation, is that too much to ask? It's been 6 months and 3 days since surgery. I feel like it's about time.
So yes. I'm a little sad. But at least I can effectively eat pizza right?

Selfies of 2014

Welp.
Yesterday, I realized I hit my 5 month mark! (Whaaaaaaaaat?!?!???????????)
Time flies when you're recovering from jaw surgery! Not really, but really.
So in celebration of that, and in celebration of the New Year, I'm posting selfies from 2014! This is mostly for me. I'm just really proud of myself for making it through jaw surgery. Life has gone nowhere but up from there. It's just super crazy to see how much my face/mouth has changed in the past year!
2014 was a crazy great year. I went to San Francisco, Hawaii, and Disneyland (twice!). I made so many unexpected friends through school, work, and even jaw surgery. I learned so much, and I can't wait to learn even more in 2015! And now I can do it with a jaw that works properly.

This actually isn't a 2014 selfie... it's one of the last selfies of 2013. And all I have to say is wow. This picture just makes me realize how much I've changed since last year. And not just physically, but socially, mentally, and emotionally too!

Celebrating New Year's last year. Woot!

The first selfie of 2014. What a gem.

Disneyland with the bros.

Seeing Studio C live! That's right, I saw this live.

I tried to take a selfie with some otters at the Monterey Bay Aquarium. Didn't actually work out too well.

So this doesn't necessarily qualify as a selfie, because I didn't take this picture myself (my mom took it), but this is one of the many times I got impressions done this year. And everytime I see this picture I'm just in awe of my lack of chin. Like, holy cow! There is NOTHING THERE.

Prom day-date 2014. What dorks.

My mom gave a talk at the Women's Conference at BYU this past year and this is her support team :) My family is pretty much the coolest. We almost take better selfies than Ellen DeGeneres. 

A shout out to all the people I work with. 'Cause they're some of the funnest, coolest, funniest, awesomest, nicest, best people I know.

Peter Pan Prom selfie. At work. Again, work is the best.

The first snowies of 2014

The sun was in our eyes. Eeeee.

Elevator selfie.

Cousin-work selfie :)

This is one of the faces I used to be able to pull before jaw surgery. Do I miss it? A little. I used to be able to make my whole chin disappear into my neck! It's a hidden talent I gratefully no longer possess.

This is one of my last true selfies before jaw surgery. I was at the surgeon's office and they had put wax over my braces to take my last impressions. So much fun!

The final supper.

THE LAST PICTURE OF ME BEFORE SURGERY. Ahhhhhhhhhh. I look so scared. Pretty sure this was taken just before I started crying. Also those socks are a spawn of Satan. I despise hospital socks with a fiery passion.

My first selfie after jaw surgery. I don't know if I have that crazed look in my eyes on purpose or if I was just really drugged. Probably both.

Measuring my recovery process in how well I can produce a "duckface". 

Lookin' swollen, but classy.

The first slice of bread after jaw surgery!

I wanted to get a picture of my splint before I got it taken out, but I just look like some kind of crazy alligator creature. I was too lazy to take my rubber bands out... no regrets.

THE SPLINT IS OUT. Easily the best day of 2014. 

52 days after surgery I hiked 14 miles up/down a mountain. I dunno, I think that's a pretty great accomplishment.

I was in my first play in since sophomore year :) It was unbelievably fun.

We're in Hawaii. But you can't really tell.

Dole whip in Hawaii. HEAVEN. 

HAWAII. AH.

Leaving Hawaii :(

This ukulele is my current pride and joy.

 2014 was fab. Mostly cause I can eat sandwiches less messily.
Happy New Year!

Day 153

Yesterday I had my second surgical procedure of the year. An esophagogastroduodenoscopy! (Or an endoscopy for short).
It was great fun, let me assure you. They put me to sleep and stuck a camera on a tube down my throat to look at my insides!
Long story short, for about the past 2 and half years I've been having digestive problems ranging from bloating to acid reflux, and my mom thought it might be related to some kind of dairy allergy, so I went to a gastroenterologist and after hearing about my problems he wanted to perform this endoscopy, which happened yesterday.
My 24-hour prep for this was actually a lot more intense than my 24-hour prep was for jaw surgery. They wanted me to shower the night before, sleep in clean pajamas and clean sheets, not eat after midnight, but drink enough liquids to produce a urine sample in the morning.
I was worried about producing enough urine in the morning, so I drank SO MUCH WATER before I went to bed. I drank so much water that my bladder acted as my alarm clock in the morning (which was actually a tender mercy, because I was supposed to wake up at 5:00am but my alarm clock didn't go off!) And then for whatever reason I was supposed to do the urine sample at home, so my mom grabbed a mason jar from the cupboard and I went in that. I was able to produce well over a full jar... the nurse was very impressed. And then she told us about this one time when she had a grandma patient who wanted her jar back after they had taken the urine out of it. Probably because she wanted to can some peaches for her grandchildren later. GROSS.
The procedure only took about 15 minutes, but I still had to get an IV and anesthesia. So that was fun. The IV wouldn't work in my right hand, even after a few minutes of digging around, but it worked right away in my left hand. And I also got some blood taken for blood work while I was asleep, so I woke up with three puncture holes in my hands.
For the rest of the day, I had a headache, it hurt to swallow, my hands hurt, and overall I just felt crappy and sad (boy, anesthesia side effects are just the funnest thing in the world!). But it was still far better than jaw surgery recovery!
I won't know if I have any allergies until I get the biopsy results back next week, but I do know my esophagus is a little messed up. It's lined with the equivalent of popped blisters. Bascially it's inflamed from acid reflux or whatever and so we need to figure out a way to fix it.

My esophagus is the #2 in the upper right-hand corner

All of my other digestive organs are lookin' good.

And this is still not as bad as jaw surgery recovery.

Day 124

OH BLOG. I'VE MISSED YOU.
An update is long past due. And this won't even be a full one, but I was looking through my past posts tonight and I got really emotional for whatever reason. I just realized all of the sudden how far I've come.
Last night, I finished a college application, and there was an essay portion. The essay prompt was "What is one of the most difficult things you have ever done or experienced? What made it difficult and what did you learn?". So naturally, I wrote about my jaw-journey, because this is BY FAR the most difficult thing I've gone through. And I was pretty proud of my essay... here it is:

Puberty left me with an underdeveloped lower jaw. This resulted in two problems: one aesthetic  (I had a receding chin), and one functional (only my back four molars touched making eating a difficult process). The only way to fix this was through surgery, so in October 2013 I got my third set of braces in preparation for a summer 2014 surgery. I spent the following school year with issues of self-esteem and self-doubt. With my deformed jaw, I didn’t feel good enough for anything or anyone— socially, I wanted to hide until I was “fixed”. I found myself counting down the minutes between each orthodontist appointment, desperate for any sign of progress. Finally my mouth was deemed ‘surgery-ready’ and my surgery date was set for July 30, 2014. After surgery, my mouth was wired shut for a week, and I was put on a liquid diet for six weeks; my mouth was too weak to chew anything. I was numb, swollen, and droolly. Even talking and breathing took a conscious effort. But it was worth it. Now, I have a functional bite, and a real chin! And I’ve learned some great lessons. I’ve learned the importance of kindness––that even if you don’t feel worthy, people will be kind. My self-esteem is improving. People may say looks don’t matter, but to each individual, looking good is important. I now know that it’s important to give others all the kindness you have, because you do not know what battles they may face. I’ve learned the importance of patience. That progress comes in millimeters. I’ve learned the importance of community— throughout this journey, I had an international community of internet-jaw-blog-friends that I could relate to, and gather tips from. Unity is strength. And finally, I’ve learned the importance of a good bite. Without one, you can’t properly consume sandwiches.

There was a word limit (and this was actually not my final draft, because it exceeds the limit), but because of the word limit, I didn't feel like I could fully explain what I learned. Especially what I've learned concerning physical appearance. It's just so complex and hard to explain! You live your whole life growing up with a deformed jaw. No one really thinks you look deformed because that's how they've known you, but you know you shouldn't look the way you do. Thus questions like, "But you look fine, why do you need surgery?" come up. You know you look wrong. Getting this surgery was 100% worth it aesthetically for me. My confidence has improved tenfold because of it.

Ok. That's all the thoughts I have the time for tonight. I have an orthodontist appointment this Thursday, so HOPEFULLY I can get myself to update again then! (I've been having issues with my bite opening back up which is scary...)